Friday could not of come at a better time, or, because of Friday, I now sit here sick, tired and drained. No matter which way you slice it, I am happy to have the next two days to myself–which brings me to the point of this post–I must get my personal life in order before Monday. Working the hours that I have being doing has left me very little time to dedicate to my homework and study time for the upcoming finals, in just a couple of weeks. Because of the long hours spent at work and cramming so many things into my personal time afterwords, I have become a little snappy to those around me. I hate it when I get this way. I sometimes don’t even realize that I’m doing it, or I change from one mood to another without a moment’s notice, then having to stop and digress, and then apologize for my temperament.
Oh my temper: oh how tiered I am. I am fortunate that I can keep my emotions in check, which in turn, keeps me from getting into any further trouble from those around me. My mood swings are very manageable, but sleep deprivation is a obvious contender to that mind control. But what can you do but try and manage it–that is a full-time job in itself.
I know the route cause, and I know that I can stop it, prevent it (money, study, love, happiness, high grades) from not happening, but we all know that being an employee is a very challenging relationship with one’s employer, and the cycle of being a slave to money is our bane. The demands of our labour versus our personal ambitions seems likely to always conflict with one another. Is there a happy medium out there just for me? I guess I better get some sleep before I regret what I’m writing in this post. Good night everyone, see you in the morning.