Well, I should not knock down this month so harshly, after all I did recover from my financial disparity and kept myself debt free. I also won my dispute with Revenue Canada, not that I was ever truly guilty, but it is nice to have the letters and phone calls stop. Plus, I did manage to keep my living expenses and costs down past my tightly planned budget. The “positives” were few, but monumental–you know who you are.
But the month of May 2011 was also unusually cold and wet, and what should have been a month of seasonal spring, only ushered in more winter weather. Until last week, there were long periods of time where I thought it was still March, and only with the leaves sprouting on the trees, I would have been fooled into thinking that. Even with the days almost at their maximum length, It still feels like spring.
With the good and the bad, the month of May has ended just as it has started. I have lots of hope and expectation, but I also have to be lucid and realistic at the same time as the economic conditions of our times seem to be making it tough for people all around me. Sure, I may think positive, but there are many around me who are on the edge of disparity. I see fraid nerves and broken hearts from the people who live around me, and they are starting to show their dissatisfaction about that. Times are tough, and all you have to do is turn off the television and look around to see it. Pride may keep people from telling the truth about their money woes, but their actions speak louder than words when they go with out, or change drastically to compensate from their old lifestyle.
The lie. Everyone lies about money in Western cultures. Governments, organized religions, corporations, Banks, families and people, we all tell fibs about our wealth because that is how we are brought up in this world today. It took me a long time to admit it, that the line between being rich and poor is more psychological than material, like a social plague we are taught to “go big, or go home.” Living with enlightenment vis-à-vis education has also put me in a very extreme perspective of myself as my world is now different from these new lenses I now wear. In terms of existentialism, I have gone from living in a fear-based world, such as dad telling me that “if I’m not good I’ll end up in Hell,” to now instinctively analysing and applying both analytical and critical thinking to each problem and issue that arises. So now I embrace my richness of my life, and have come to my senses of what really counts in it. So far, the only people that I have pissed off are a handful of theologians and every Bank in the land, a small price for prosperity and my happiness. But I do not plan to stop there. There are more roads to travel and more hills to conquer; thus, no more lies. Why even bother to lie—I do not care about economic prosperity—I say save that for the Conservatives thinkers?
The single most important thing I have learned in the past five months is how valuable friendship is. Friends are part of our social wellness. We need friends, and they are truly a valued commodity because without friends, we are not human. I cannot thank my friends enough as I have learned to appreciate them on so many levels. The power to talking and listening is living at the grandest level. It is friends that I think is the missing link of our social thought that can carry us through anything that nature has to throw at us. The month of May has granted me with so many friends, and because of that, I am so much richer then I was in March!