Write What?

November 24th, 2010 Thomasso

OK, I want to write, but I can’t. I’m burnt out. My mind can’t stay focused on anything right now. Is this a bad sign? I don’t know.

The semester is almost in its final few weeks, just days away from completion. This means so much for me, but as you may know from past entries on this blog that I feel unworthy right now. I feel unworthy because of my low grade with one of my classes. But besides that point of a low overall mark in a class that I struggle with, there is the twilight of a chapter in my life coming to an end. I will graduate.

I asked myself this question last week while I was neck deep in fear and stress from my study-overload and class assignments list coming due all at once: What will I become once I graduate?

I decided to put that off until I finally do, graduate, meaning that I don’t want to bury my thoughts into something that will pull me down even further than I already am. Yes, I value my graduation, and that is why I am doing all of this, as I want to be recognized for all of my hard work and effort, but I remembered way back when I started going to university that I wanted to become so much more with my education. So much more? But what?

I seem to have forgotten what it was that I wanted when I first stepped onto the hallowed ground of university and started down that path of the brain expansion and then classed into nerds of geektom. I remembered, jokingly, that I was going to seek out the answer from the age old question, “why”? But that wasn’t it either.

Well, I guess I will ponder that question after the term is over – in three weeks. Wish me luck.

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Looking Back and Forth

November 11th, 2010 Thomasso

So much for today done, but still so much left to do.

The emails from my interviews back in October are still rolling in. Every place that I have had interviews with are still asking me to make appointments and schedule further times for more meetings, and I have two short-list interviews coming up very shortly.  Remember that this is on top of my existing work schedule, and I am entering into the last round of midterms for this semester.

I have nine more trips to make into Richmond for my French class then the commute into hell is finished. I am nearing the $150.00 mark in cost of fuel, and have logged 21 hours in travel time because of this stupid class. My anger towards Kwantlen Polytechnic University is quite high right now because of this, but all I can do is bite my tongue. There is less than five weeks left, so I will make it, but at great cost. They could have had this class in Surrey instead of Richmond where most of the students go. But Richmond does have one huge plus: It has lots of parking!

I am not going to complain about homework in this post. I will spare you this time.

Banking Hell:

I had a very interesting adventure with cashing a cheque at the R* Bank in Langley City yesterday. The teller was down right snotty when I asked to cash it. I did not have an account with them, but I do this quite regularly with lots of other Banks, so I am an old pro with cashing out cheques. I listen to her spew for ten minutes before I finally asked if she could just exchange it for legal tender. All I said was, “please, can I have my money,” and she went ballistic. The amount for the cheque was $840.94, and was dated for that day.

Here is some of what the teller said to me:

Thomasso: “I would like to cash this cheque; I do not have an account here; I have I.D.; the cheque is from this location.”

R* Bank Teller: “Do you have an account with us?”

Thomasso: “No. I would like to cash this cheque.”

R* Bank Teller: “you have to have an account with us, or I can’t give you money.”

Thomasso: “I would like to cash this cheque; I do not have an account here; I have I.D.; the cheque is from this location.”

R* Bank Teller: “You don’t talk to me like that! You are not a member here and you do not have the right to make demands here. We don’t don’t clear cheques at this branch”

Thomasso: “Well, hum, this is cheque is made from this branch, and your member banks here.”

R* Bank Teller: “I don’t like your tone. You don’t talk to me like that!”

Thomasso: “ All I asked for was my money – I don’t want to open an account here…”

R* Bank Teller: “You know you are costing us a lot of money, and by not opening up an account with us, you may not get all of your money – I have the right to limit the amount of money you can get here you know?”

Thomasso: “Well, then it is your member who will bear the cost, as I will pass any costs back to him. And if his cheque is no good then he is in trouble. He does have this amount of money in his account to cover this cheque”?

R* Bank Teller: “You open an account right now!”

Thomasso: “Are you going to honour this cheque?”

R* Bank Teller: “We don’t give out cash for cheques, there is a clearing process, we hold it for five business days – and there is a service charge for all of this.”

Thomasso: “Really, then my friend’s cheque is no good?”

R* Bank Teller: “O.K., I will do this just this once, but from now one you will need to open an account with us if you want your cheques cashed. And I am charging you five dollars too!”

She starts writing on the paper and then heads to the rear of the room to get the cash. She is also telling her coworkers and gives me the odd glance, and they all seem to be giggling and shacking their heads.

R* Bank Teller: “Here’s your money.” And she starts counting really loud, smacking the bills hard on the counter.

All this time I was worried if the Bank actually had any cash at all in it. With the credit crunch and debt so high, I heard rumours that most Banks were only carrying small amounts of money in their vaults. Dealing with this Bank really made me start to think. Of course, I will, ever, Bank at a R* Bank after this! This is just bad business. And this tells me that this Bank is hard-up, and could be in trouble, if its employees are to go this length to hassle people.

A lesson for a Bank who wants people to bank with them would be to really open up and be nice to people, then maybe they will see more good people come back to them as customers?  I will not wipe my feet with this Bank, unless I have to cash another cheque with them, again.

Addendum:

Of course, today is one of Canada’s true holidays, well, at least in some provinces. I thought today was a national holiday but my friend in Ontario told me yesterday that it is a regular work day for him, so I may have to do some further investigating on whether this is true or not. I call today Canada’s true holiday because it does not have anything to do with any one religion, or customs, from an outside group or culture, or that it predates events beyond Canada’s creation from 1867. This is a truly Canadian holiday, even though it spawned from our early days as a byproduct of British colonialism, each man that fought in the first world war did so as a Canadian. Yes, we share this date with all those who also fought from their respected lands, but for Canada, Remembrance Day is a Canadian icon of who we are and our identity as a free and independent nation.

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The big G-day: 6 Weeks

November 3rd, 2010 Thomasso

I was going to write a big fat diatribe about my French class, and how I am not getting enough sleep and my life is just a autonomic state of being, reacting from various stimuli. No, instead I am just going to write about the really beautiful sun rise this morning, and why I am just counting the squares on my calendar as 2010 counts down.

The sun rise this morning was a welcomed site to see. I took about 30 photos of it as the clouds slowly changed from dark navy blues into blood red and orange. If this is the start of the day, for a November third, then the rest of the day should be equally spectacular.

I submitted my graduation application yesterday. I could have done this at the beginning of the semester, but I had so many things going on that time just was not on my side then. With the midterms over, and we move down the homestretch, and I do not need to worry about the next semester, I did some house cleaning with my graduation details.

I guess I should received my piece of paper with the gold sticker on it by the end of the term, just before the end of the year. Remember that I said in my last post that the graduation ceremony will be in June of 2011, so I think we give document back to the powers that be and they resubmit it back to us on the day of graduation. Seeking basic answers to simple questions is like pulling teeth at admissions – Know one can answer them at the front desk.

Right now, I keep on plugging away at my two courses. This is all I am focusing on right now. I will be flooded with interviews for up coming employment in the next couple of weeks, so my finals might be a little hectic time wise. I have over eight interviews coming up. Yes, eight! It seems crime is big business right now in Canada. Boy, did I make the right choice: economic meltdown, Conservative government, graduate of Criminology -  these are all factors for increased crime legislation and a commitment for resources to be pumped into it. The stars could not have lined up as perfect as they have.

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Round Two Is Over

October 30th, 2010 Thomasso

I am back. I have today and a bit of tomorrow all to myself until my commitments take over my body and I am hauled off into the land of chaos. My non-stop marathon had left my with a whole pile clutter in my home, a ton of food that I had to throw out, and a mail box full of letters, most were unless ads, but there were some bills buried in that pile. Among the insomnia and stress came some welcomed new and hope.

My email finally came back form the BA Degree Advisor, Faculty of Social Sciences at my learning institution, Kwantlen Polytechnic University. Rather than paraphrasing it, here is what it said:

“From my review, it looks like you will have completed all of your degree requirements once you complete your current classes.  Congratulations!  Please apply for graduation right away. This can (and should) be done in the semester when you take the last of your courses. Visit (Web site withheld) to obtain the request form. Complete and submit it to Enrolment Services on any Kwantlen campus. Please be sure to fill out a convocation ceremony form if you wish to attend convocation in June 2011. Check with admissions when this can be done” (Kwantlen, October 29, 2010).

The relief that this brings to me is of the most gratifying kind. Six years of ploughing through the curriculum and hundreds of hours of it are finally coming to an end. I could almost squeeze out a tear.

Some momentous occasions should be noted here:

I just gave my last in class presentation as an undergraduate. This occurred on the 27th, in my Political science class.

I will not be signing up for the registration at Admissions for the Spring 2011 semester. I will keep the $250,00 in my pocket – thank you.

And I do not care about my Class registration time and date. That will be nice, no more competition.

Then there is raising the money for courses for the next semester before the cut-off date. That will end too.

Round three will start on Monday, until the end of the semester. I have two more midterms scheduled and a couple of small quizzes. I still have a midterm paper and final to write – that should be super easy because my last presentation was my paper, including my thesis statement.

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I am In a Weird Mood

October 26th, 2010 Thomasso

First, I should not be writing this post. I should be sleeping, but I cannot. So, I will just type a few words and hopefully I will slowly fall asleep and wake up tomorrow morning all refreshed and ready to face the new day.

I have the usual exams, tests and papers to have ready for this week. Tomorrow I present in my Political Science class. I have to present my outline for my paper that will be worth 30 percent of the course grade. Even though this is a first year course, and it only requires a ten page paper with ten sources, I take it very seriously nonetheless. I am really worried about my French exam on Thursday, as that one will be a little easer, but I am severely struggling in that class.

The commute out to Richmond is getting easer. I think I have developed an immunity to Richmond drivers. I can now easily navigate through the city with ease and can spot the general way people drive there. It is nice that I can adapt so quickly compared to my first couple of trips going there to the campus. Biting my nails was all I remembered doing back then as I drove down to the campus for the first time.

I have less than eight weeks to go before it is all over. Graduation is approaching, and I cannot wait! I am even having dreams about it. But it is scary becuase after that, the real world starts, and that will take some getting used to. I have spent so much time doing courses that I might find myself going through withdraw with nothing to do as the SLOW pace of everyday normal life starts up.  Oh no?

Well, I will sign off for now. I think I have hit that sleepy felling. Good night.

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Brain R & R

October 22nd, 2010 Thomasso

I made today my half day of rest. I did nothing academic, except looked at my grades from the last round of midterms. Instead I played around with PovRay, the base program that I create all these 3D images from. With my new machine, my four-core (gaming machine), rendering is much more pleasant than working with my former four-core processor.

Normally, my old machine would have froze every five minutes, and rendering would have taken several minutes at resolutions of 6000 x 4000. Now this machine doesn’t even hick-up when I create something like this, above.

Well, sleep time. I have to prepare for my Political Science presentation, plus two job interviews, and of course, my favourite subject, French, as there is yet another “test” for that class–all for next week. There are only seven weeks left in the regular scheduled semester, and I do not have finals in any of my classes, that I am aware of, so time is going by fast as I approach my graduation date. It is these happy thoughts that keep my going. It is all I think about.

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Typing Time Away

October 18th, 2010 Thomasso

One good thing about writing in this blog is the amount of time that it takes to crank out an entry into it. Sure, some would say that this is a bad thing, while others would argue that it is all in the perspective and context that it is taken in, but I am using it to my advantage. Right now at this very moment I need to burn a couple of hours of time, mainly to take my mind off of the course material that I have been going over repeatedly for the last three days, and also to keep myself awake until 9:00pm so I can get my promised eight hours of sleep I have been planning.  I have a midterm tomorrow, and I need every minute of sleep that I can get for better performance during the exam.

This week will be relatively mild, with just this small midterm schedule for tomorrow, and just regular lectures, but the week following will be another week of exams, with a presentation on the 27th. Presentations are weird because no two profs grade the same, yet everyone that I have seen and been apart of, all seem the same in their basic components. You have the Power Point, from which most just read from it; and then you have the well prepared introduction, list of points, and a small but eloquent closing. Everything can either be squeezed into a five minute spiel, or the presentation could go on for hours. It is different from one group to another in term of preparation and the amount of data used, but they all follow the same pattern.

The Male and Female brain is one of the most fascinating topics I recently got involved with last week. Once in a while you do find yourself immersed into a full blown discussion on or in your field of expertise. How men and women learn was the topic of this one. It was fascinating at the many different points among undergraduates. Some argue that boys, when they are developing, fall into three distinct groups of learning behaviour, where as girls, in the same age group, seen to have four or five. This is all new to me as I never read any of these research case studies they cited, so I would really have to go out and do some serious reading to catch up and be able to participate in this discussion. But I found it intriguing to say the least. Psychology is a very wide field of study, and it could take one up to six years just to graduate from it, and have enough knowledge under your belt to become an expert.

In my field, Criminology, I took some time today to follow a live twitter feed of  Colonel Russell Williams’ court appearance during his deposition hearing, where he plead guilty to all 82 counts of break and entering where he was sealing women’s underwear and taking pictures of himself in the homes of the women he stole the garments form, while wearing those garments, and two murders, and some sexual assaults. He will get automatic life in prison.

What I found profound was that his criminal spree reportedly went back roughly two and a half years before his eventual capture by police. One side effect of criminology is that we automatically try to label and categories criminals, and put them in lists for further examination. We are always looking for that magic pattern.

The benefits of the live twitter feed is that you get to read, in detail, what both the Crown and Defence are saying in almost real time, a you get perspective that you otherwise would not get unless you were actually there. I guess in court you can bring in your Blackberry and type away. I know that you cannot record the audio, or take photographs. But hey, texting is the next best thing.

Tomorrow the hearing continues.

Well, I still have some time left, so I may do some cleaning then off to bed. Talk to you all later!

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It is Cold in Hell

October 16th, 2010 Thomasso

My head hurts. Not from banging it up against the wall because I could not get all of the words in my French vocabulary exercise memorised, but because I am going through the minefield of things that cause stress. French is only part of the minefield that I am going through. It is all the other things that are piling up, and this brings the feeling of uncertainty to the forefront.

Last night I spent an hour laying in bed because I could not get any sleep. Sleep and worrying are a bad combination. My sleep deprivation came in the form of having the fear of forgetting all of my recently learned knowledge and not being able to regurgitate it in a midterm I had in a dream.

In the real world I am so close, but the finish line is still so far away as far as classes go. There are just a few more hurtles to jump, but my mind is getting tired, and I am getting old for this.

Then there is the “what am I going to do afterwards” feelings. This is where most of my stress is coming from. Promises are like dark hollow messages of hope, and I have learned over the course of life time not to follow them. From the people who are very close to me, to the people of authority, promises are empty and carry little weight because they have all failed me before at one time or another. Even the paper and pen from people who that have signed their names in the form of promissory notes to are empty in my mind because I have being left holding nothing in the past. My mind will be my sword, the knowledge that I have gained over the last six years will be my guarantee into the my new awakening.

My future career awaits me, somewhere, out there.

It is easy for my mind to slip back into a time from when I was just a young man, in my early twenties, when my crazy friends would do the most stupid of things. Back then life was an adventure, but as we got older we learned what life really is, being punched in the face, your valuables stolen, being lied to, you become hard and cold. The good things were far and few between. For most of my friends drugs was the way out. Somehow I managed to jump over that torrent like river, and swam a shore without drowning.

I blamed it on being poor, but then as I leaned from my masters in academia, that is a fallacy. The nature versus nurture argument says that it is a combination of your genes and the environment you live in that makes the person you are today. So I cannot lay blame on anyone, or anything, because where I am today is so far from where most people are that I am an anomaly of sorts. I am not suppose to be where I am today based on the great bell curb of social standards. Based on my genes and upbringing, I should be some drug addicted grease monkey working in the back of some garage along junction 443 in the far North in British Columbia. But I am not.

The mind plays some really weird tricks, and sometimes, for a moment, those tricks become so vivid that you actually think you are drowning in that torrent like river.

Week “seven” approaches in the semester. This means I am nearing the halfway point. The light in the tunnel is close now. Seven more weeks.

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Fast Times at Richmond High

October 15th, 2010 Thomasso

Holy-molly have I been busy. I have been going like mad trying to keep up with all my activities. Today is sort of a temporary “time out” as I will try and catch up on all the things that need to be done that I have put on hold since I started writing midterms on Tuesday. Yes, those pesky midterms. They are really bad for me this semester. I will spare you the rant and not talk about them, but instead I will focus on all the other things that took place over the course of the week gone by.

Travelling to Richmond twice a week for one class seems to be working out for me. I am adjusting to huge commute. Although time is still my enemy, I am keeping up with getting there on time, and getting home at a descent hour, although accidents are still a problems.

I really listen to the radio for the road reports now. The reports have saved me on my decision making for what route to take going into Richmond. I have been diverted twice now from taking the Tunnel on Highway 99 North, going into Richmond. I have four choices, but the Tunnel is the best for time, if all goes well. Once I had to go through New Westminster, and that was time sucking experience as it appeared to be the only route going into Vancouver at that time. That day was a two hour commute going in, and an hour and a half going out.

There have been some diversion along the way through the week. Yesterday there was a very nice sun set over Richmond campus at Kwantlen Polytechnic University. People just stopped and started at it. My crappy camera did it no justice.

On Tuesday, someone pulled the fire alarm just as were about to start our class. We ended up going back as everyone wanted to get it over with. I noticed that many student left the campus anyway, so perhaps the intent of that person who pulled the fire alarm worked?

Watching people walk out of the build was interesting also. My class was on the second floor, and there are a total of three floors, and one stairway and an elevator to exit with. The stream of bodies going down the stairs was painfully slow. One can only imagine what it would have been like if there had being a real file.

Well, that is all for now. I’m tired. Bye.

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A Thursday Post

October 7th, 2010 Thomasso

So much going on, with so little time, keeping on top of everything is getting harder to do as each new day into this final semester pushes forward for me. This pace is realty wearing me down fast. The four hours sleeps during the middle of the week are take a toll on my cognitive abilities in my general daily activities. The homework loads are not helping either. Work is just a sideline now as I’m starting to pay more attention to my future employment requirements. Homework and interviews are running my daily life now—in a big way.

I have an interview with the corrections department out in Abbotsford, BC coming up. This is just a update on my security clearance so that I can continue to work within the various government facilities, whether it is for volunteering, or for employment reasons. These are routine, and can be quite rigorous, but I have now gotten to the point where I can zip through these forms in a mater of minutes.

Homework is getting out of hand with all the formats that I have to work with now. The strangest participation mark will be the “Pot-Luck dinner” we will have in French class next week. Perhaps the best way to learn a language is to learn their food?

All my classes have on-line components in them. This means working on websites, answering questions, then begin graded on them. I was thinking the other day how this would have be completely foreign to someone just twenty years ago. I mean this is nuts, doing homework on a web site that will be graded by your instructor as part of your overall course mark. Hey, I am of the age when this was a transitional method of learning, but for the younger students, they think nothing of it.

Preparing to Move On

I have started the “tear down” process with my home life this week. Even though I have over 15 weeks to go until I (may have to) move, I have started putting things into storage. I have decided that I will do small amounts of items over a long period of time so that I do not exhaust myself when the actual move date approaches. From past experiences, doing everything at the last moment in one large move, the recovery time is such a waste and lasts so long afterwords. I figured out that if I take my time, do everything in small manageable amounts, my productivity time is far greater. I will put this to the test. I want to see what is more efficient in the long run with these two strategies.

Note to the “Radman.”

First, Radman is not a mechanic. Radman, I will respond to your comment that you posted on my previous post this weekend. I really want to respond to the your “Twitter” opinion. I think you have touched upon something very interesting, what the media call the “great divide,” so hold tight.

Friends From University News:

This came from the Kwantlen Polytechnic University Student run newspaper, The Runner. Please follow this link: Friends 4 Food Fraught with Obstacles, posted Sept 30, 2010. What is cool is that these women are keeping the fight going. I will never forget when one of my fellow classmates was chased around the campus by the security guards, then he was escorted off the grounds, because he was handing out leaflets for his protest. Of course each side has their stories, but the we all believe that it was an attempt to silent the voices. The two women in this story are former classmates also from the same class that the security guard incident occurred.

Some stats on my current semester:

Today, as of October 07:

  • 19 more trips to go, (including today) into Richmond.
  • Gasoline used so far, 32 liters just for this commute (Richmond Only).
  • Time during the commute: 10:34 Hrs Richmond Only (Week#5)
  • Midterm/Exam: 1
  • Paper: 1
  • Quiz/Test: 3

* I do not include my commute to the Langley Campus because it takes me literally 8 to 22 minutes to drive there, during rush hour.

*The midterms include both courses.

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